Task 7: Rope Harness

Previous task | Next task “I would like you to do some self-bondage. Pick a style of rope harness, learn it and photograph it.” Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There are pictures available with this post. Oh god, rope, I’m so Continue Reading →

Yearning for Rules

We all think of our exes sometimes. Some have left a bigger impact than others but I believe the end of D/s and M/s dynamics generally leave a bigger, longer-lasting mark, even if they weren’t romantic. Sometimes I wonder how Lisa is doing and I think about what Lois might say to me. Now with all this time at home and nowhere to go I’m Continue Reading →

Task 5: Pleasant Burning

Previous task | Next task “Put on your favourite underwear, doesn’t matter whether it’s ugly or pretty, dig out your tiger balm and apply a small amount to your clit. Take a picture, get creative.” Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There Continue Reading →

Old Ghosts Return

Content warning: dissociation, depression, suicidal thoughts. Before Covid-19 I walk into my Counsellor’s office and as we sit down we’re both smiling. There is a small, awkward silence; we never seem to know how to start these sessions so he asks me how I’m feeling. The answer to this question has mostly been the same for the past year. I don’t know; I’m not feeling Continue Reading →

Task 3: Shaping a Sun

Previous task | Next task “Use some needles; 4 of them to be precise in a place of your choosing.” Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There are pictures available with this post. When I get a task, I don’t want to Continue Reading →

Task 2: Masturbating to…

Previous task | Next task “In the evening, dim the lights and put on: Mantra 1 by Popul Vuh. Light a candle, strip down, masturbate and then pour the candle down your front.” Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There are pictures Continue Reading →

Task 1: My Pain is your Pleasure

Next task The lovely Miss Roxy who I met at The Unicorn Board has been giving me some tasks which I’ve been uploading on Twitter, but I thought I’d keep up with my blog as well. I’m catching up but once we’re at task 8, I’ll upload them on the day they were done. “Use clothespins and snake them down your body, continue the trail Continue Reading →

Task 6: Flourish

Previous task | Next task Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There are 29 pictures available with this post. Miss Roxy has been giving me some fun tasks which you can follow on Twitter and one of them was finding something beautiful Continue Reading →

Tasks Given by People on Fetlife

Previous Post | Next Post Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There are pictures available with this post. Lois had been interested in having me do tasks given by other people for a while. I suppose this is evident in how she’d Continue Reading →

Deserving to call her Mistress

Previous Post | Next Post As you know, I’ve always referred to Lois as Miss Lois because that’s what she told me to address her as – that is, for the first half of my training. At some point, this changed and I was allowed to address her as Mistress Lois. The title was something she thought should be earned and eventually I did. Let’s Continue Reading →

Task 4: Wear a Butt Plug for an Hour

Previous task | Next task Last Saturday, Miss Roxy set me the task to wear my butt plug for an hour. I had gone to another play event though and wasn’t home until late where I fell asleep within an hour and so didn’t fulfil the task. I wasn’t entirely sure if I should still do it regardless but now, quite late, I thought I Continue Reading →

Part 2: At the Unicorn Board

Continuing where I left off at Part 1: Hot Queer Gay Party, I walked up to the unicorn board. A woman was looking at the board and taking some of the notes down. I think I said hi or perhaps she turned towards me because she noticed someone approaching. Once she saw me, her expression changed, as if she was very excited to have some Continue Reading →

Part 1: Hot Queer Kinky Play Party

Looking for kinky events to attend I came across this party and thought, that’s one I want to be at. The word hot could have been indicative of a good party but what caught my attention was the word, queer. As you’re well aware, I’m gay so what better place to meet other queers than at a queer party? However, the time of this party Continue Reading →

My First Fetish Event

If you read my post Breaking into the scene? or Attending my first BDSM event you know I was anxious about attending play events or any kinky events for that matter. I freaked out on the Saturday before Sugar Kane, the fetish/play event I planned on going to. My thoughts spiralled, thinking I couldn’t do this and that it was even stupid of me to Continue Reading →

Hiding BDSM from my flatmate

When Lois and I were still in this online M/s dynamic, I was living with one other flatmate who is also my friend (in fact, I still live with her atm). Lois and I never had a set schedule. She would come online at random times and random days. It was always different. But if she came online and we were suddenly having a session, Continue Reading →

Punishment: Drinking out of a toilet (#2)

Previous Post | Next Post Read the first instalment Punishment: The day I drank out of a toilet Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There are pictures available with this post. Lois: “You were up early” (She meant this morning around 5 Continue Reading →

Should I tell my Counsellor about D/s?

As you know, I’ve struggled with my mental health since I was about 13 years old. I saw a psychiatrist for a little while when I was 16, but when it wasn’t helping I pretended I was ok so she’d let me go. It wasn’t until I started university that I felt I needed help and therefore, I went to the doctor in Wales. He gave me Continue Reading →

Utilising My Body

I was always a slim child. I loved running around, playing sports and I also dressed like a boy. It wasn’t a fashion choice as such, it was simply more comfortable and practical as my friends and I (only boys) weren’t the let’s stay quiet and indoors type. We liked to go on adventures. My two-year-younger sister preferred more ‘typical’ girl things. She liked to Continue Reading →

Stapling my Vagina Shut

Buy a video of me stapling my vagina here | Buy a video of Mistress Stapling my vagina shut here Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There is a picture set available with this blog post. This idea wasn’t entirely fabricated by my Continue Reading →

“You have 5 Minutes to send me a Kinky Picture”

Previous Post | Next Post Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There is a picture set available with this post. Another post on a past happening with Miss Lois. I had just woken up and the sound of her incoming message took Continue Reading →

Licking Wasabi off My Stilettos

Previous Post | Next Post Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There is a picture set available with this post. (I’m currently relying on scheduled posts because of work and uni and football and planning classes and… I expect to be less Continue Reading →

Wearing Clothespins for a Full Night

Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There is a pictureset available with this blog post. Clothespins were one of the first things I used to experience some sort of submissive feeling and pain on my own. I don’t remember how I got Continue Reading →