A Masochistic Lesbian Slave
On Friday morning I had a video call with Dilan and Roxy, and not long after we finished, I went to the shop. The store in question is less than a five minute walk from my flat and when I walked back into my street I thought I saw Roxy’s silhouette at the end of it. I thought about it for a moment. Surely that Continue Reading →
Previous task “Cook yourself an elaborate and delicious 3 course meal of your choice. Find recipes for me to approve if it’s elaborate and special enough. When you eat it, wear something nice so you feel good.” A poor diet When the day came to do this task, I felt a massive dread to execute it. I’ve been struggling to eat healthy over the past Continue Reading →
Roxy recently moved flats and very enthusiastically showed me her new four poster bed when I came over for the first time. She suggested that this bed would be great for play, and I remember thinking: I’m sure it would be… and pictured the different positions she might put me in. On my third visit to her new flat, I brought along a bondage restraint that I Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Send me a letter with the A4 sheet you wrote out in it.” When I was a teenager, most of my friends lived on the internet. I was incredibly close to them and since there was a big distance between us, I would sometimes write letters or send postcards because it’s fun to receive something physical in the mail. Getting Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Pee into a bowl. Balance the bowl on your foot and balance on one leg. If it drops in under a minute, lick it off the floor.” I feel like this task was set up with the intention that I would fail. While the same seemed to be true for the line writing task, this one held slightly bigger stakes. Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Fill an a4 sheet with the line ‘I worship and adore my mistress’ whilst balancing a 10 pence piece from your writing hand. Every time it drops you have a Talley of 10 self spanks for every time it falls, deliver yourself the spanks straight after the sheet if full.” I spoke on the phone to Roxy when she first Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Put on your white pants and pee yourself.” I have been spending a few days with my friends up in the countryside and this evening we were catching the last of that day’s sun with a drink in the garden. I hadn’t been putting this task off, but when I’m with people I feel more self-conscious about having to take Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “The task was to write the word mistress with the pen up your butt not the word mistress onto your butt. So now your arse looks like a target with my name on it. Literally. Well, I suppose there’s gonna have to be a forfeit. Self-flagellation with nettles. Enjoy.” I went outside and first came across plants that looked like Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Write the word Mistress with a pen up your butt.” The way I read this task was “write the word Mistress with a pen” and “up your butt”. It didn’t make sense to me to write the word up my butt so I presumed my Mistress must mean write it on your butt. I asked Naomi if she wanted to Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Get some nettles and use them with the training dildo in your butt.” This task surprised me and was a little expected at the same time. A while ago, Mistress said she would like to use a strap on with nettles because I dislike vaginal penetration so much. (If this is your first time on my blog, I like things Continue Reading →
Previous task | Next task “Put clothes pegs on the labia and use your wand.” Just after waking up I put the pegs on my labia while my music was still playing, then walked back to my computer to turn the music off. As I walked over I started to feel a slight burning sensation around my labia and wondered what the hell was going Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Stand with your head and elbows against the wall on your tiptoes for 10 minutes.” Like the last task, the time it took to execute was very minimal. I expected this position to be strenuous because I’ve often done this stretch of standing on the toes for fitness purposes and it’s not pleasant! Stress position I set a timer on Continue Reading →
It was around 4 or 5 am in the morning and it had been a very strange night. I was on MDMA and it had been filled with kink and filth until our gathering was interrupted. After the issue was resolved, most people continued having a good time but I noticed that The Baron, my good friend, appeared to be feeling off and I was Continue Reading →
Next Task For a while, my Mistress gave me tasks to fulfil, which I wrote about in several blog posts. She gave me these when we were in our first Covid lockdown and when I still lived in a different city as I wasn’t able to see her then. When we came out of lockdown and I moved to Glasgow, we no longer felt the Continue Reading →
Last year at the start of winter, I filmed a spanking film alongside three other girls and two tops at a beautiful manor in the countryside. It took a full three days to film with a six of the best caning scene at the end. When we finished my final take I felt completely exhausted and wanted nothing more than to curl up into a Continue Reading →
This post was written and sponsored by sex diaries project. As you have noticed, I haven’t written much in the last month. This is due to my submission of my thesis, which will be completed after the 24th of June and I’ll come back with loads of kinky posts after this date 😉 Now, on to the main post: 5 Basic Safety Rules Of BDSM Continue Reading →
I love knowing that Roxy and I are going to play. When we go to certain places it no longer has to be said and there’s simply a knowledge that we will, which makes me happy. I don’t tend to ask what we’re going to do and only inform her if I need to be unmarked or not. When the evening fell we went to Continue Reading →
I was approached by Bestvibe once again to review one of their toys and I chose to try out the Remote Pussy Pumps with Egg Vibrators. Like last time, the toy arrived in discreet packaging, and within the box, every item came in individually wrapped plastic. The reason why I was interested in trying a pussy pump is that I wanted to know if it Continue Reading →
Next Post A few weeks back, I tried acid for the first time as I went candy flipping with a few friends. I have tried different substances and find the different effects fascinating, so felt naturally curious about acid too. Whereas in the past I was afraid of having a negative response, nowadays I feel like it couldn’t possibly be worse than having to hold Continue Reading →
After Roxy and I played with needles for the first time she said: “Maybe we can pierce your nipple next time?” It was partly a question and partly a statement. “Y-yes,” I believe I said, a little taken by surprise. As the idea further dawned on me I became more excited. I had thought of nipple piercings many times before but getting them done by Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post Sometimes words are difficult and playing instead is exactly what I need. It’s how I first connected to Roxy and how I seem to find a kind of joy I haven’t experienced anywhere else. For as long as I can remember I have been interested in rope and getting tied. I’m not sure where the appeal comes from exactly, but Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post A few weeks ago, I was meant to see Roxy on Sunday. She had said we would the weekend prior and having something to look forward to really helps me nowadays. That week, my mental health wasn’t great and the thought of wanting to die was constantly on my mind. However, I did the right things to help myself and Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post Content warning: Mention of blood and needles. (Pictures will be hidden, however. You can choose whether you want to see them.) After getting rather bruised from shooting a cp video on a Friday a little while ago, I sent Roxy a picture. She didn’t reply that day but when we next spoke on the phone she said seeing it had Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post The previous week, Roxy was supposed to try out a new makeup look on me and do my hair, potentially to use in future videos. That didn’t happen so instead we moved it to the following weekend, which meant this was the first time we saw each other since the punishment. I had taken the time to learn how to Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “I like you to practise this pose every day so that I’ll be able to take that picture.” The picture and pose Roxy was referring to is this one from Eric Kroll’s book Fetish Girls. I bought it a little while ago and Roxy had a look when she was over. I’m not sure whether we sat together and looked Continue Reading →