A Masochistic Lesbian Slave
As you may know, Mistress gave me the task to train myself to be able to insert vaginally. I have been doing this task daily for almost two months and managed to go up quite successfully in dildo size. I’m genuinely surprised that I’m being successful. I can actually move a dildo inside of my vaginally without pain, even if the initial insertion still hurts. Continue Reading →
About two weeks ago, I started a daily vaginal training task that Mistress has given me. As you all know, I don’t like vaginal penetration and tend to avoid it if I can. Insertion generally hurts me, no matter how small the object. I would never even use tampons for example and I think it’s save to say I probably have vaginismus. Mistress likes things Continue Reading →
Next Task For a while, my Mistress gave me tasks to fulfil, which I wrote about in several blog posts. She gave me these when we were in our first Covid lockdown and when I still lived in a different city as I wasn’t able to see her then. When we came out of lockdown and I moved to Glasgow, we no longer felt the Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “I like you to practise this pose every day so that I’ll be able to take that picture.” The picture and pose Roxy was referring to is this one from Eric Kroll’s book Fetish Girls. I bought it a little while ago and Roxy had a look when she was over. I’m not sure whether we sat together and looked Continue Reading →
Recently I was able to spend the entire day with Roxy and it allowed us to have a really nice time. Nothing was planned and there seemed little to no time limit, which made it feel relaxed and I could let go of my troubles. I will probably write about this day more in another blog post, but there’s a specific part I want to Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “If you have staplers and needles I want to see your belly button stapled and/or with needles in it.” Aah, really?! That’s what you want me to do as a second task?! A week ago or so a friend said to me about how I had put needles in my belly button before and I corrected her then: “Not in, but Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Wear some stockings, put clothespins on your toes and hit them off with something.” After task 27, Roxy stopped giving me tasks for a while. This was around the time I moved to Glasgow and since I have been able to see her much more often, especially as she’s my extended household during this lockdown. Naturally, as a result, we Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Make a rope harness that’s attached to the ring of your collar and take some pictures.” After receiving my collar, Roxy unsurprisingly gave me the task to take some pictures with it. Combining it with a rope harness sounded quite simple but when I started thinking of the mechanics it didn’t add up in my head. It’s quite common to Continue Reading →
My dynamic with Lois was very different from my current one with Roxy. The most obvious difference is that one was online and one takes place in person but the set up of the relationships is distinctive too. While Lois and I were only Mistress and slave, Roxy and I are friends too. In my first dynamic, I was explicitly and constantly reminded of my Continue Reading →
Previous Task | My Mistress is Coming Over I cannot remember how she set this task so let’s just imagine it was something like, “Wear a rope harness and take a picture outdoors.” The other day I realised that I had forgotten to post about this task as it took place just before Roxy came over weeks ago. But as I went through the posts Continue Reading →
Friday Back | Next Task “Saturday, I want an artistic video of you in a mask, gimp hood or otherwise.” Out of the six tasks this week, I dreaded Saturday the most. For some reason, I get anxious every time Roxy gives me a video task; I think I’m afraid to fail – I mean, that’s definitely it. In order to avoid my anxiety spiral, Continue Reading →
Thursday Belly Button | Saturday Erotic Video “I would very much appreciate an artistic photo of a body part: Friday Back.” Like with the Belly Button, I wasn’t very inspired by this prompt. I talked about it with Devie for a bit and she suggested doing something with black stripes on a black background but I just couldn’t envision it. I thought of a picture Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post (Please keep in mind that this post was written a full year ago before the time of publishing.) After getting off the train, home and upstairs, Lois asked me to turn on the webcam and to check what was in the room. I was visiting my dad so I didn’t have a lot of toys with me. In the meantime, Continue Reading →
Wednesday Nipples | Friday Back “I would very much appreciate an artistic photo of a body part: Thursday belly button.” Whereas my ideas came fairly easily to mind for Mon-Wed, I was a bit lost for this one. I never really think about belly buttons; they’re there and that’s fine but I don’t feel a specific appeal for them. I do quite like how the Continue Reading →
Tuesday Rope | Thursday Belly Button Content warning: Needles “I would very much appreciate an artistic photo of a body part: Wednesday nipples.” For these pictures, I thought of using nipple clamps but it seemed a bit cliche to use nipple clamps for nipples. I don’t know why as they’re literally just designed for nipples, but hey; It didn’t feel creative enough and a bit Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post (To read this full post with the pictures, subscribe to my Onlyfans here.) (Please keep in mind that this post was written a full year ago before the time of publishing.) It’d been about a month and a half since Lois and I had the conversation in which our dynamic ended. She’d said hi a few times to see how Continue Reading →
Previous: Week of Erotic Art | Next: Tuesday Rope “I would very much appreciate an artistic photo of a body part: Monday collarbone.” I wasn’t entirely sure what to do with the collarbone. I had never thought of specifically photographing that detail and was a bit clueless as to what props I could use. I wondered if props were necessary as my collarbones come out Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Monday Collarbone This task took place before Roxy was over for the weekend. You can read about that here. Because of the pandemic, Roxy started a new job out of necessity. After the first week, it was pretty clear that it’s not a job she particularly enjoys and so I thought I could perhaps improve her week by doing something with rope Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post Content warning: self-harm and suicidal thoughts There were two weeks between when we tried out the inflatable butt plug, and Lois’ next message. In her message she apologised, saying it was a really busy time at work and that it would stay like this for a while longer and hoped that all was well with me. Two weeks later she Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Make a one-minute snappy erotic film where the focus is on your emotion and the aesthetic. I remember a friend who used to work on gay porn say to me ‘ the story is told through people’s bodies in porn…well good porn anyway.’ And that’s true, how you channel that is up to you.” Another Video… I haven’t been enjoying Continue Reading →
“Then the traveller in the dark, thanks for your tiny spark” Over the weekend I took a few different pictures with different themes for Roxy, about which I’ll write soon but as this particular one happened to coincide with Tie me up Tuesday, I’m posting these pictures now. I have a new purple rope, which is a lot thinner but appears to be of better Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Capture the pain somehow of having clamps on your labia, this can be a photo or video.” I hate clamps. Yes, I like pain so it’s a bit of a love-hate relationship but let me repeat myself: I hate clamps! Or, at the very least I hate these clamps, the binder clips and have since the very first time Lois Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “For your next clip think of a loose storyline and combine close-ups, medium and wide angles with thought to your framing and imagery. Also if you have premiere think of how to make a ‘look’ or cancel areas of digital noise (grain) with masking etc. Although the expectation for porn in low, audiences are sophisticated in that their eyes are Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task This task, unlike the others, wasn’t planned. I was taking some naked pictures in a forested place about a 30-minute uphill bicycle ride from where I live. I’ve seen people walk here but generally, the place appears to be secluded. Still, when I get there I jump over a fence to steer away from the main path. Naked Pictures The Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post About a year ago now, two of my Dutch friends were visiting me in Scotland. We’d done some sightseeing the days before but were just chilling in the living room today. They were looking into booking a trip to the highlands but I wasn’t going because I didn’t have the money. So as they were using my laptop I was Continue Reading →