Mistress pieced my nipple

After Roxy and I played with needles for the first time she said: “Maybe we can pierce your nipple next time?” It was partly a question and partly a statement.  “Y-yes,” I believe I said, a little taken by surprise. As the idea further dawned on me I became more excited. I had thought of nipple piercings many times before but getting them done by Continue Reading →

Changing Connections

Some people are afraid of getting older but what I’m really afraid of is a certain kind of change that comes with the passing of time. You can be the closest of friends with someone, which feels so secure that you think it will always last, but time passes and things change. Either the people themselves change or the situation around them changes and what Continue Reading →

Holding the Strings

Content warning: Depression, dissociation, self-harm, suicide I have a lot of discipline as a slave and a person. Rules are important for me in an M/s relationship because they set out the parameter. However, I don’t have to be disciplined much because I am very disciplined. I think it’s because I’ve had to be for different reasons and they are each building on one another. Continue Reading →

S in BDSM does not stand for Sex

When I think of BDSM, my mind never really jumps to sex. If you look at the meaning of the letters you’ll notice none of them stands for sex, while there’s certainly an S in the word. But when people hear BDSM they intrinsically think of the bedroom, some handcuffs and otherwise probably some typical vanilla sex. I guess you can’t blame them; porn tends Continue Reading →

I am a Question to the World

“I am a question to the world, Not an answer to be heard, Or a moment that’s held in your arms.”   You smile like Mona Lisa, is what my boss at the time (now close friend) said after the first few weeks that I had worked with her. She wondered what was going on in my head but I couldn’t say. She had opened Continue Reading →

Open Lotus

More on Onlyfans here I’m not sure if this title makes sense. I brainstorm titles with my best friend and he was like, well if you had both legs crossed it would be a lotus, so maybe it’s half a lotus, or, an open lotus! So there you go. I bought these because all of you have these great pictures with fishnets and I got Continue Reading →

Writing Letters with a Kinky Twist

I was in a relationship for a year when I was around 20. I met her during the second semester of my first year at university and we officially became a couple about one to two months after that. She was an exchange student at the time and we had to part in August because her studies started back up in Denmark. My ex was Continue Reading →

My First Caning Session

The video of this session (33 minutes) can be bought on my C4S here or contact me on mlslpup@gmail.com and pay through PayPal. My First Caning Session I never thought my first form of impact play, apart from having done some light spanking, would be caning. To be honest, I’m interested in everything so I never had my mindset on a specific form of impact play Continue Reading →

From ‘Innocent’ Girl to Obedient Slave

Mindset is an interesting thing. It is possible to talk about different kind of mindsets; mindset can mean whether or not you’re in the mood for sex, and mindset can mean your attitude. While it is called mind’set,’ a mindset is anything but set and can be changed as long as one is open to change and the mindset can be changed, for example, in Continue Reading →

Happy Holidays!

Whether you celebrate Christmas or not or no matter what way you celebrate it in I hope you enjoy your time off work or otherwise the double pay you get (which I hope is the case when working on Christmas everywhere??) I wrote a post about dreading Christmas in November but regardless of this, I am going to attempt to make this year’s one a Continue Reading →

“You Can Breathe” | Letting go and Moving forward

April 2015 I can describe us with an endless list of songs. I can see her in everything she has ever talked about. She used to be my first thought in the morning and my last thought when I went to bed. She didn’t even leave me in my dreams. She was always there, with me, in my head, but hasn’t been with me for Continue Reading →

Dreaming of being Collared

I’m going to start this post off with a little anecdote. I had a lot of internet friends when I was younger (guess I am part of the generation that literally grew up with the internet). And two of these friends and I were part of a bigger group of people that were making videos together. Not in person, we all lived in different countries. Continue Reading →