My First Fetish Event

If you read my post Breaking into the scene? or Attending my first BDSM event you know I was anxious about attending play events or any kinky events for that matter. I freaked out on the Saturday before Sugar Kane, the fetish/play event I planned on going to. My thoughts spiralled, thinking I couldn’t do this and that it was even stupid of me to try. I thought I would make a fool of myself if I showed up or Continue Reading →

Breaking into the scene?

As you are well aware, I am looking for a Mistress; I’m a slave without an owner, of course, I am. Many of you ask me if I have found one yet but like with vanilla relationships, it doesn’t just happen because you want it to. However, I have been wanting to get more involved in the scene and as you might also be aware, I haven’t been that successful yet. I have been to some munches, two workshops and met Continue Reading →

Anticipating My First Caning

The lovely Simon Brooke who I did suspension with showed me a Fetlife post of a bisexual female Dominant in Scotland, MissSultryBelle, who is looking for girls to cane on video. I was immediately interested. 1. I’ve been dying to try out any form of impact play. 2. It feels difficult to find bisexual/lesbian female Dominants that would be interested in doing things with me. 3. I have no problem with being on video. I messaged her and wasn’t sure Continue Reading →

Conquering fear: Attending my first BDSM event

I used to be afraid of accepting the BDSM/kinky part of myself without truly knowing that I was afraid. I always knew that I was into BDSM and that I wanted to live my life in that lifestyle with someone I could submit to. I absolutely believed in this. I never doubted this. It was way more certain than my sexuality until I figured out I was gay. Yet, I didn’t know I was a slave until Miss Lois truly started helping me open up and exploring this identity of mine. Continue Reading →