Category: Life as a slave

My life as a slave is quite wonderful but it took quite a few hurdles to accept myself. I started learning more about myself when I started my training with Lois, my past Mistress. Our dynamic, ended but since I have been blogging about my experiences in the hope to share and educate and show you that you’re not alone if you are just starting out.

Seeing Me at my Most Intimate

Seeing Me at my Most Intimate

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A lot of people are embarrassed to be naked, which stems from being told that we need to safeguard our private parts from a young age. It’s not strange that this is taught because at some point people started invading other people’s privacy to satisfy their lust (non-consensually, obviously). As a result, however, there’s quite a bit of shame around nudity. Pleasure in Exposure I always imagined that if a Domme told me to undress in front of her I’d Continue Reading →

Booty in a Bind

Booty in a Bind

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I’ve been making a habit of doing the Tie me up Tuesday prompts pretty last minute so I thought I’d do better this time. As I usually waste my entire morning with waking up I decided to do it straight after getting up. The added benefit of this was that I didn’t have to dress only to undress later in the day. If there’s one thing I dislike it’s having to take off my clothes because it’s cold. I can’t Continue Reading →

Head Cage

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This time’s Tie me up Tuesday prompt was the head cage and while I thought this one would be fairly simple it was an absolute pain to tie the double coin knot. I think I only managed to get it on my tenth go, but after that, it was really easy to do the second one. The head cage itself then was rather simple, though also a pain to get it onto me. I cheated with the final knot behind Continue Reading →

A Professional Submissive?

A Professional Submissive?

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When I started doing caning clips the only thing I had to worry about was being on blood thinners (which is perhaps quite a lot to worry about? lol) but I didn’t have to worry about my bruises and how they’d have to heal if I wanted to play with someone else. Back in January, I wrote about my fondness of marks as they can serve as a visible reminder of intimate play. I’d never really had many bruises since impact Continue Reading →

Slave Mistress Weekend: Saturday

Slave Mistress Weekend: Saturday

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Previous Post | Next Post I woke up at 9 am by my alarm and got up to have my own breakfast before preparing hers. I didn’t really need an hour though it was nice to take it slow as I was rather sleepy. I waited in the kitchen until the 09:59 on my phone changed to 10:00 and pushed the door open ever so uncertainly. I hate waking people because I don’t want to disturb them but when I Continue Reading →

Slave Mistress Weekend: Friday

Slave Mistress Weekend: Friday

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Last weekend, my Mistress came over for the first time. After reading the initial post I know you’re all dying to read how it went and I can tell you it was really nice. It’s hard for me to comprehend or explain but it made me feel so much like myself. On Sunday on our way to the bus stop, Roxy said she’s interested to see what I’ll write too, so here goes. I’ve split it in three parts because Continue Reading →

My Mistress is Coming Over

My Mistress is Coming Over

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If you’re in Scotland, you’re probably aware that we get to meet people indoors again. I also still happen to live alone for a limited amount of time so what better way to spend it than with a Mistress? Well, for the weekend anyway, Roxy is coming over. When you read this she will have already arrived (Friday evening) and so this is a scheduled post because I’ll probably be erm, busy, or something. Last weekend I don’t think I believe Continue Reading →

How do you know you're a lesbian?

How do you know you’re a lesbian?

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How do you know? People sometimes ask me. How do I know that I’m gay and not straight? This question came up a lot specifically closer to my coming out. I get it. We’re curious about one another and I have a certain experience that you may not have but the thing is our experiences aren’t different at all. It’s all very simple. I feel the same attraction you feel for someone of the opposite gender except I feel it Continue Reading →

Erotic Photography

Erotic Photography

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If you look at the pictures I put out now you’d never think I was scared of doing this once. You probably wouldn’t even think I was shy or struggled with my body image but until this last year, I would have never thought I’d be able to take any of the pictures I take now. I used to be a bit jealous of my friends because they were so free in taking pictures of themselves. I wanted to capture Continue Reading →

Holding the Strings

Holding the Strings

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Content warning: Depression, dissociation, self-harm, suicide topics.  I have a lot of discipline as a slave and a person. Rules are important for me in an M/s relationship because they set out the parameter. However, I don’t have to be disciplined much because I am very disciplined. I think it’s because I’ve had to be for different reasons and they are each building on one another. I’m going to have to derail a bit from BDSM to explain how I Continue Reading →

S in BDSM does not stand for sex

S in BDSM does not stand for Sex

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When I think of BDSM, my mind never really jumps to sex. If you look at the meaning of the letters you’ll notice none of them stands for sex, while there’s certainly an S in the word. But when people hear BDSM they intrinsically think of the bedroom, some handcuffs and otherwise probably some typical vanilla sex. I guess you can’t blame them; porn tends to show some whips and chains followed by penetrative sex, which fills 75% of the Continue Reading →

Purple Mermaid Tail

Purple Mermaid Tail

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The loops The Mermaid Tie is such a pretty tie. I’m in awe of how the tails of others look like but I struggled to accomplish the same myself. The tie itself is very simple in that you repeat the same step over and over. The tie is more ‘complicated’ for the fact you need to get the loops right and when you start with the first and need to add in the second, it seems like you’d need an Continue Reading →

I am a Question to the World

I am a Question to the World

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“I am a question to the world, Not an answer to be heard, Or a moment that’s held in your arms.”   You smile like Mona Lisa, is what my boss at the time (now close friend) said after the first few weeks that I had worked with her. She wondered what was going on in my head but I couldn’t say. She had opened a small window which cast a single ray of light but I was too far Continue Reading →

Rope Ready

Rope Ready

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A little late to my own party, but rope ready now, I hope it was worth the wait, ha 😉 Though I should have probably worn some sort of bra, but I wasn’t sure what was going to match. Trying to find an outfit to combine with a rope harness that would work for a party was quite difficult. Once I finished my harness, I realised that it might have been a good idea to wear a dress underneath but Continue Reading →

Always Ready to Serve

Always Ready to Serve

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I never really thought of what a service sub is because I think all submissives (and dominants) are doing things in service of each other. A submissive kneeling in front of their dominant is a very clear sign of service; wearing a collar too is in service of. On the other hand, a dominant taking care of their submissive is in service of them. For me in the past, specifically, Lois would make me feel useful, which is something I Continue Reading →

Adapting Desires

Adapting Desires

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Everyone has certain ideas and tends to stick to certain values. Sometimes we are so attached to these that we aren’t open to receiving input from elsewhere. I for one am convinced there is no god and am not receptive to the idea that I should practise religion. Is this a bad thing? No, not necessarily but the consequence is that I’ve closed to the door to possible enlightenment which religion can bring other people. While I have certain ideas Continue Reading →

Tie Those Hips

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I had not anticipated the hip harness would be so difficult (for me). Maybe I had been feeling a false sense of confidence as the other ties started to become easier or maybe I just wasn’t in the right mood when I did this one. I was attempting to cheer up my day and thought it might cheer up others as well but the frustration when tying this took over. To be honest, it’s not that difficult of a tie, Continue Reading →

Two Sides of Shame in Kink

The Two Sides of Shame in Kink and BDSM

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“Shame attends only where we are interested.” (p. 4) I came across this quote in Failing Desire by Karmen MacKendrick, a book I recently started reading due to my interest in kink and self-discovery (and on the recommendation by Roxy). Shame is no stranger to BDSM and so Failing Desire, which “draws on theology and queer theory to argue for the power of humiliating pleasures in a culture oriented very strongly to denying any enjoyment that is not about success,” seemed Continue Reading →

The Shinju with some Add-ons

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Following Tie me up Tuesday week’s 2 prompt (do join in and enjoy the fun!) I decided to try a shinju harness. Seeing the other entries so far I got very excited to do this one myself. The start of this one is a real pain. I found it difficult to reach the rope so high up my back and when they explained which parts of rope to put under and over one another I lost the plot quite quickly Continue Reading →

Practising Balance

Practising Balance

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Since I recently did the normal leg tie, I thought I’d try out a slightly different one to practise some balance, I guess, ha. It’s fairly difficult to figure out how to tie this while balancing on one leg. It made me think of a stretch we do in football and to be fair, my balance is pretty good. Then when I finished, I couldn’t help but have a little fun taking pictures. And then I couldn’t help but have Continue Reading →

Kinky fantasies to help me fall asleep

Kinky Fantasies to Help me Fall Asleep

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For as long as I can remember I’ve been bad at sleeping. My parents quickly concluded it must be because my dad is a poor sleeper and that I inherited it from him, thanks dad, haha. So at first, when we still had these big massive radios I listened to Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter audiobooks. When I was around nine or ten I was given an old television, which must have seemed harmless, but when you turn Continue Reading →

Old Ghosts Return

Old Ghosts Return

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Content warning: dissociation, depression, suicidal thoughts. Before Covid-19 I walk into my Counsellor’s office and as we sit down we’re both smiling. There is a small, awkward silence; we never seem to know how to start these sessions so he asks me how I’m feeling. The answer to this question has mostly been the same for the past year. I don’t know; I’m not feeling much so he asks me where my awareness rests instead. I tend to notice when Continue Reading →