Holding the Strings
Content warning: Depression, dissociation, self-harm, suicide I have a lot of discipline as a slave and a person. Rules are important for me in an M/s relationship because they set Continue Reading →
Category: Sex Bloggers for Mental Health
I am a Question to the World
“I am a question to the world, Not an answer to be heard, Or a moment that’s held in your arms.” You smile like Mona Lisa, is what my Continue Reading →
Kinky Fantasies to Help me Fall Asleep
For as long as I can remember I’ve been bad at sleeping. My parents quickly concluded it must be because my dad is a poor sleeper and that I inherited Continue Reading →
Sweaty hair sticks to my face and I feel alive
I have been exercising on a weekly basis without a break except for summer holidays since I was around five years old. My parents thought it was important for me Continue Reading →
My First Fetish Event
If you read my post Breaking into the scene? or Attending my first BDSM event you know I was anxious about attending play events or any kinky events for that Continue Reading →
Utilising My Body
I was always a slim child. I loved running around, playing sports and I also dressed like a boy. It wasn’t a fashion choice as such, it was simply more Continue Reading →
Which one is Real?
Trigger warning: depression and suicidal thoughts. Sometimes I slip into it so slowly that I don’t notice I have changed at all. I am aware that I’m not feeling well Continue Reading →
Triggering Dissociation with a Task
Previous Post | Next Post I have written about my dissociation in the past in My Mental Illness: Depression and Dissociation and written a guest post attempting to explain a Continue Reading →
Learning that I am allowed to exist
For years, I struggled with the idea of my own existence. I didn’t want to be alive and didn’t think I should exist. I preferred to be invisible and part Continue Reading →
Reclaiming Agency over Depression, Eliminating Bad Habits like comfort food
Depression has a lot of invisible to the outside world side-effects that I imagine people often feel ashamed about, and therefore walk around with it alone. I know I felt Continue Reading →
Coping with the Upcoming Holidays
Halloween has passed and somehow that means it is now time for Christmas, starting on the 1st of November. THAT IS 54 days until Christmas day. It essentially means that ‘we’ dedicate almost 2 months to Christmas. 2 MONTHS! That is how much ‘we’ all love Christmas, but I’m not one of the people that does… Continue Reading →
My Mental Illness: depression and dissociation and their relationship with my slave identity and kinky lifestyle
I have been following the site of Sex Bloggers for Mental Health for a while, intending to follow one of their writing prompts but forget to / am too busy Continue Reading →