“I would like you to do some self-bondage. Pick a style of rope harness, learn it and photograph it.”
Oh god, rope, I’m so bad at rope. Additionally, how could I make this look pretty enough to be as good as the flowers from the last task? I didn’t want to pick a standard harness but I couldn’t find a good one. I tried a different one before this and I got frustrated with the knots. Somehow, when I look at the two ends of the rope and think about making a knot I lose it. It’s like, a knot? What’s a knot? How does one tie a knot? Or similarly when one part of the rope has to go under or over another and then the second one gets involved and I’m like aaah.
I was sabotaging myself by wanting to do well and it was only when I let that go I managed to do this one on my fourth try. It’s really not that difficult once you get it but for every time I had to start over, I had to remove the rope between my legs which was getting wet and… well.
By the end, I was enjoying this. I think it looks pretty? I struggle with my body image sometimes but adding when wearing something like this, I can appreciate it again. I like the look and feel of rope a lot and it’s been nice getting tasks I would have never otherwise thought about. These tasks are creative.
Xx Marie Louise