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Mistress Roxy and I were in a dynamic since mid 2020, after we met at a Fetish event in February of that year. We were unable to meet during the first lockdown and engaged in online tasks instead. We used it to get to know each other until restrictions eased. After that, we were in a lifestyle dynamic and also worked professionally for two and a half years.
I love knowing that Roxy and I are going to play. When we go to certain places it no longer has to be said and there’s simply a knowledge that we will, which makes me happy. I don’t tend to ask what we’re going to do and only inform her if I need to be unmarked or not. When the evening fell we went to Continue Reading →
After Roxy and I played with needles for the first time she said: “Maybe we can pierce your nipple next time?” It was partly a question and partly a statement. “Y-yes,” I believe I said, a little taken by surprise. As the idea further dawned on me I became more excited. I had thought of nipple piercings many times before but getting them done by Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post A few weeks ago, I was meant to see Roxy on Sunday. She had said we would the weekend prior and having something to look forward to really helps me nowadays. That week, my mental health wasn’t great and the thought of wanting to die was constantly on my mind. However, I did the right things to help myself and Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post Content warning: Mention of blood and needles. Please Note: (Due to the new online safety act, pictures and videos can no longer be found on this blog. To access them, please message me on Loyalfans) After getting rather bruised from shooting a cp video on a Friday a little while ago, I sent Roxy a picture. She didn’t reply that Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post The previous week, Roxy was supposed to try out a new makeup look on me and do my hair, potentially to use in future videos. That didn’t happen so instead we moved it to the following weekend, which meant this was the first time we saw each other since the punishment. I had taken the time to learn how to Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “I like you to practise this pose every day so that I’ll be able to take that picture.” Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. The picture and pose Roxy was referring to is this one from Eric Continue Reading →
Recently I was able to spend the entire day with Roxy and it allowed us to have a really nice time. Nothing was planned and there seemed little to no time limit, which made it feel relaxed and I could let go of my troubles. I will probably write about this day more in another blog post, but there’s a specific part I want to Continue Reading →
Next Post Note: I haven’t been posting much lately because I’m really struggling with my mental health but hopefully, this is the start of getting back on track. What I’m writing about here took place about a month ago. I knew Roxy was coming over today and I knew I was going to be punished. I wasn’t sure what to expect from this, as Roxy Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “If you have staplers and needles I want to see your belly button stapled and/or with needles in it.” Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. This Post has a picture set available. Aah, really?! That’s what you Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Wear some stockings, put clothespins on your toes and hit them off with something.” After task 27, Roxy stopped giving me tasks for a while. This was around the time I moved to Glasgow and since I have been able to see her much more often, especially as she’s my extended household during this lockdown. Naturally, as a result, we Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Make a rope harness that’s attached to the ring of your collar and take some pictures.” Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. This Post has a picture set available. After receiving my collar, Roxy unsurprisingly gave me Continue Reading →
After quite an intense belting on New Years, Roxy and I hugged for a little before finding her partner in the living room. Something appeared to be up and so her attention shifted and while I was able to lean against her they soon went for a smoke. It was okay because I could cuddle with a friend in front of the fire but after Continue Reading →
On New Year’s Eve, I asked Roxy if we would play tonight. I thought we might but it would have been okay if we didn’t; I was happy enough that we were together but she said we would, she was wearing her belt. “Great,” I said quite nonchalantly, conscious about not wanting to seem too excited (I was very excited, obv). Twelve ‘o clock came Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “Make a rope harness that a crotch rope can be attached to.” Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. This post has a picture set available. I got a bit behind on posting about the tasks Roxy set Continue Reading →
When people ask me about my kinks and fantasies and I often don’t know what to say. I’m interested in a lot of things but if I think about it whipping has always been a big fantasy of mine. When I was struggling to sleep at night as a teen, I pictured myself standing in a dark room with my arms and legs spread and Continue Reading →
Quite unexpectedly, I was able to spend New Years with my Mistress and her partner this year. We hugged just after 12 and wished each other a happy new year, then she pointed at the floor. “Kiss my boots for your first act of submission of 2021,” she said. I looked at her for a moment, conscious that her partner was right there with us. Continue Reading →
Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. This post has a few pictures and a video available. Quite a while ago, Roxy started a project that required green screen replacements, for which she thought I’d be the perfect person to help out. I Continue Reading →
“In preparation, I want your hair pleated in one tight pleat at the back and braid it with a rope through it,” Roxy texted me on Friday morning two weeks ago. We were going to the dungeon on Saturday evening and as she said it I saw time evaporate right before my eyes. I can’t braid my own hair. It’s one of those ‘simple skills’ Continue Reading →
Last week, Roxy and I brought another visit to the dungeon. She’d given me the task to braid rope into my hair in preparation and handed me a bundle of impact toys and rope to take to the playroom upstairs. It felt a bit ridiculous carrying these, not least because I was holding my own tools of torture but also because there were too many Continue Reading →
Previous Task | A Date with a Domme “Promptly take any creative picture with your new tail.” Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. I had been awaiting my tail for a long time. I first started thinking of getting one back in Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Task After the crotch rope and some final play, Roxy told me to put my clothes back on (yes, over the rope harness). We packed our stuff and she went to store her things away. I could have followed her but I stood still on my own in the dark for a while as there was something very soothing about it. Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post I have always been interested in crotch rope predicaments. So much so that it’s one of the few things my ex and I actively pursued even though we barely ended up doing anything kinky. Last year before December I made my own crotch rope predicament by lacing the rope around the rail in my wardrobe and locked myself in place Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post Roxy said she’d got me a present for my birthday. I kind of knew what it would be but tried really hard to suppress my knowledge about it. I struggled with the idea because I wanted it so badly that I couldn’t allow myself to feel happy about it; apparently I don’t think I deserve to be happy. I was Continue Reading →
Some people are afraid of getting older but what I’m really afraid of is a certain kind of change that comes with the passing of time. You can be the closest of friends with someone, which feels so secure that you think it will always last, but time passes and things change. Either the people themselves change or the situation around them changes and what Continue Reading →
Previous task | Next Post Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. It had been about two months since I saw Roxy last when she came over to mine. I had really been looking forward to seeing her at my place again (and Continue Reading →
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