Task 27: Attach a harness to your collar

Previous Task | Next Task “Make a rope harness that’s attached to the ring of your collar and take some pictures.” After receiving my collar, Roxy unsurprisingly gave me the task to take some pictures with it. Combining it with a rope harness sounded quite simple but when I started thinking of the mechanics it didn’t add up in my head. It’s quite common to Continue Reading →

Two Weights and a Crotch Rope

Last week, Roxy and I brought another visit to the dungeon. She’d given me the task to braid rope into my hair in preparation and handed me a bundle of impact toys and rope to take to the playroom upstairs. It felt a bit ridiculous carrying these, not least because I was holding my own tools of torture but also because there were too many Continue Reading →

My Very Own Collar

Previous Post | Next Post Roxy said she’d got me a present for my birthday. I kind of knew what it would be but tried really hard to suppress my knowledge about it. I struggled with the idea because I wanted it so badly that I couldn’t allow myself to feel happy about it; apparently I don’t think I deserve to be happy. I was Continue Reading →

Limitless Slave

All of us have limits and boundaries; there’s no such thing as a limitless slave. In a BDSM context, it’s especially important to be aware of these and to communicate about them. I think it’s hard to list your limits just like that. Personally I feel like I don’t have many but it’s dangerous to just say you have none, especially as this isn’t true. Continue Reading →

Seeing Me at my Most Intimate

A lot of people are embarrassed to be naked, which stems from being told that we need to safeguard our private parts from a young age. It’s not strange that this is taught because at some point people started invading other people’s privacy to satisfy their lust (non-consensually, obviously). As a result, however, there’s quite a bit of shame around nudity. Pleasure in Exposure I Continue Reading →

Round the Neighbourhood, Half Naked with a Bottle of Pee

Previous Post | Next Post Content warning: self-harm and suicidal thoughts There were two weeks between when we tried out the inflatable butt plug, and Lois’ next message. In her message she apologised, saying it was a really busy time at work and that it would stay like this for a while longer and hoped that all was well with me. Two weeks later she Continue Reading →

A Professional Submissive?

When I started doing caning clips the only thing I had to worry about was being on blood thinners (which is perhaps quite a lot to worry about? lol) but I didn’t have to worry about my bruises and how they’d have to heal if I wanted to play with someone else. Back in January, I wrote about my fondness of marks as they can serve Continue Reading →

Erotic Photography

If you look at the pictures I put out now you’d never think I was scared of doing this once. You probably wouldn’t even think I was shy or struggled with my body image but until this last year, I would have never thought I’d be able to take any of the pictures I take now. I used to be a bit jealous of my Continue Reading →

Holding the Strings

Content warning: Depression, dissociation, self-harm, suicide I have a lot of discipline as a slave and a person. Rules are important for me in an M/s relationship because they set out the parameter. However, I don’t have to be disciplined much because I am very disciplined. I think it’s because I’ve had to be for different reasons and they are each building on one another. Continue Reading →

Always Ready to Serve

I never really thought of what a service sub is because I think all submissives (and dominants) are doing things in service of each other. A submissive kneeling in front of their dominant is a very clear sign of service; wearing a collar too is in service of. On the other hand, a dominant taking care of their submissive is in service of them. For Continue Reading →

Adapting Desires

Everyone has certain ideas and tends to stick to certain values. Sometimes we are so attached to these that we aren’t open to receiving input from elsewhere. I for one am convinced there is no god and am not receptive to the idea that I should practise religion. Is this a bad thing? No, not necessarily but the consequence is that I’ve closed to the Continue Reading →

Anticipating My First Caning

I’ve since had my first caning about which you can read here. The video of this session (33 minutes) can be bought on my only fans page ($24.99) or contact me on mlslpup@gmail.com and pay through PayPal (£18) Anticipating my first caning The lovely Simon Brooke who I did suspension with showed me a Fetlife post of a bisexual female Dominant in Scotland, MissSultryBelle, who Continue Reading →

From ‘Innocent’ Girl to Obedient Slave

Mindset is an interesting thing. It is possible to talk about different kind of mindsets; mindset can mean whether or not you’re in the mood for sex, and mindset can mean your attitude. While it is called mind’set,’ a mindset is anything but set and can be changed as long as one is open to change and the mindset can be changed, for example, in Continue Reading →

My Kinky Fantasies

I’ve been dreaming of kinky shenanigans for yeaaars. And I mean years because while I’m only 24-years old, I knew I was into kink just as I entered secondary school. Of course, I was way too young to be allowed to be into kink and so I had to stick to my fantasies. Sometimes these fantasies would include me playing with dolls or lego and Continue Reading →