A Masochistic Lesbian Submissive
Last week I had the pleasure of attending my graduation ceremony in person. It was the first graduation ceremony at my University since the pandemic and I’m very lucky it coincided with the end of my degree. While I knew it was going to take place, I didn’t know if I wanted to attend for a while. If you’re a regular reader of my blog Continue Reading →
In the lead up to Mistress’ birthday, she mentioned that she had always wanted to put birthday candles on her human slave. I didn’t understand how it would work, as I couldn’t envision the candles staying upright. And so she explained that we’d use needles of course, and that I was going to be her human birthday cake. The thought filled me with joy because she Continue Reading →
A week or so ago, Mistress and I stayed in Kent for a little over a week with our good friend Lady Amber. We were there to do sessions and have a catch up, which included watching several horror movies at night. I ended up feeling ready for bed far earlier than they did, however and so I asked if we could sort the sleeping arrangements. Continue Reading →
After Roxy and I played with needles for the first time she said: “Maybe we can pierce your nipple next time?” It was partly a question and partly a statement. “Y-yes,” I believe I said, a little taken by surprise. As the idea further dawned on me I became more excited. I had thought of nipple piercings many times before but getting them done by Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post A few weeks ago, I was meant to see Roxy on Sunday. She had said we would the weekend prior and having something to look forward to really helps me nowadays. That week, my mental health wasn’t great and the thought of wanting to die was constantly on my mind. However, I did the right things to help myself and Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post Content warning: Mention of blood and needles. (Pictures will be hidden, however. You can choose whether you want to see them.) After getting rather bruised from shooting a cp video on a Friday a little while ago, I sent Roxy a picture. She didn’t reply that day but when we next spoke on the phone she said seeing it had Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post The previous week, Roxy was supposed to try out a new makeup look on me and do my hair, potentially to use in future videos. That didn’t happen so instead we moved it to the following weekend, which meant this was the first time we saw each other since the punishment. I had taken the time to learn how to Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Next Task “I like you to practise this pose every day so that I’ll be able to take that picture.” The picture and pose Roxy was referring to is this one from Eric Kroll’s book Fetish Girls. I bought it a little while ago and Roxy had a look when she was over. I’m not sure whether we sat together and looked Continue Reading →
Recently I was able to spend the entire day with Roxy and it allowed us to have a really nice time. Nothing was planned and there seemed little to no time limit, which made it feel relaxed and I could let go of my troubles. I will probably write about this day more in another blog post, but there’s a specific part I want to Continue Reading →
Next Post Note: I haven’t been posting much lately because I’m really struggling with my mental health but hopefully, this is the start of getting back on track. What I’m writing about here took place about a month ago. I knew Roxy was coming over today and I knew I was going to be punished. I wasn’t sure what to expect from this, as Roxy Continue Reading →
After quite an intense belting on New Years, Roxy and I hugged for a little before finding her partner in the living room. Something appeared to be up and so her attention shifted and while I was able to lean against her they soon went for a smoke. It was okay because I could cuddle with a friend in front of the fire but after Continue Reading →
On New Year’s Eve, I asked Roxy if we would play tonight. I thought we might but it would have been okay if we didn’t; I was happy enough that we were together but she said we would, she was wearing her belt. “Great,” I said quite nonchalantly, conscious about not wanting to seem too excited (I was very excited, obv). Twelve ‘o clock came Continue Reading →
When people ask me about my kinks and fantasies and I often don’t know what to say. I’m interested in a lot of things but if I think about it whipping has always been a big fantasy of mine. When I was struggling to sleep at night as a teen, I pictured myself standing in a dark room with my arms and legs spread and Continue Reading →
Quite unexpectedly, I was able to spend New Years with my Mistress and her partner this year. We hugged just after 12 and wished each other a happy new year, then she pointed at the floor. “Kiss my boots for your first act of submission of 2021,” she said. I looked at her for a moment, conscious that her partner was right there with us. Continue Reading →
Quite a while ago, Roxy started a project that required green screen replacements, for which she thought I’d be the perfect person to help out. I work well with After Effects, but I’d never replaced 4 different moving green screens in one clip and it proved to be quite the challenge. The job is very tedious and was specifically frustrating due to some technical issues Continue Reading →
Previous Post While I have tried to document the entirety of this dynamic, I didn’t want to write about it anymore. I’ve captured most of it and there are only a few tasks/sessions missing here and there. A few days before the dynamic ended, Lois set me the task in which I’d have to orgasm before I was allowed to use the toilet during the Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post (Please keep in mind that my dynamic with Lois ended over a year ago. I wrote this fairly quickly after it took place and apparently decided to write it in the present tense. I’d be curious to know what you think about the present tense compared to my usual past tense. Does it change the reading experience?) When Lois comes Continue Reading →
Last week, Roxy and I brought another visit to the dungeon. She’d given me the task to braid rope into my hair in preparation and handed me a bundle of impact toys and rope to take to the playroom upstairs. It felt a bit ridiculous carrying these, not least because I was holding my own tools of torture but also because there were too many Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Task After the crotch rope and some final play, Roxy told me to put my clothes back on (yes, over the rope harness). We packed our stuff and she went to store her things away. I could have followed her but I stood still on my own in the dark for a while as there was something very soothing about it. Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post Roxy said she’d got me a present for my birthday. I kind of knew what it would be but tried really hard to suppress my knowledge about it. I struggled with the idea because I wanted it so badly that I couldn’t allow myself to feel happy about it; apparently I don’t think I deserve to be happy. I was Continue Reading →
Recently, I have been struggling to say “Yes Mistress” because it seems like I haven’t accepted the shame of taking on the submissive role. Or at the very least, I haven’t felt confident enough to dive in, I suppose. I mentioned my hesitancy to use it during my weekend with Roxy. It seems like I’m afraid I’ll be judged or that it’s weird for me Continue Reading →
All of us have limits and boundaries; there’s no such thing as a limitless slave. In a BDSM context, it’s especially important to be aware of these and to communicate about them. I think it’s hard to list your limits just like that. Personally I feel like I don’t have many but it’s dangerous to just say you have none, especially as this isn’t true. Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post (Reminder that my posts about Lois are a re-telling and took place over a year ago) In my messages to Lois during her absence, I had started spiralling some more. Like I mentioned in the previous post, uni had broken up, football had stopped, I didn’t have access to therapy or MH help, and I was working in housekeeping full Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Task I woke up early from sweat-inducing dreams so I took a shower this morning, then tried to pass time playing with the injury on my lip (I will write a post about my lip sometime). Waking her up with breakfast felt less awkward this morning. Her lips curled into a smile again when I whispered good morning Mistress and when she Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post I woke up at 9 am by my alarm and got up to have my own breakfast before preparing hers. I didn’t really need an hour though it was nice to take it slow as I was rather sleepy. I waited in the kitchen until the 09:59 on my phone changed to 10:00 and pushed the door open ever so Continue Reading →
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