Holding the Strings

Content warning: Depression, dissociation, self-harm, suicide topics.  I have a lot of discipline as a slave and a person. Rules are important for me in an M/s relationship because they set out the parameter. However, I don’t have to be disciplined much because I am very disciplined. I think it’s because I’ve had to be for different reasons and they are each building on one another. I’m going to have to derail a bit from BDSM to explain how I Continue Reading →

Always Ready to Serve

I never really thought of what a service sub is because I think all submissives (and dominants) are doing things in service of each other. A submissive kneeling in front of their dominant is a very clear sign of service; wearing a collar too is in service of. On the other hand, a dominant taking care of their submissive is in service of them. For me in the past, specifically, Lois would make me feel useful, which is something I Continue Reading →

Adapting Desires

Everyone has certain ideas and tends to stick to certain values. Sometimes we are so attached to these that we aren’t open to receiving input from elsewhere. I for one am convinced there is no god and am not receptive to the idea that I should practise religion. Is this a bad thing? No, not necessarily but the consequence is that I’ve closed to the door to possible enlightenment which religion can bring other people. While I have certain ideas Continue Reading →

Seven Days in April ~ Day 3

Buy the entire bundle of the Seven Days in April Diaries here. This is day 3 of a week of diary entries I wrote at the start of April, in collaboration with other bloggers I was asked to partake in by May Moore for her online publication. I’ve been struggling (as I’m sure many of you have) with finding a way to cope with the current Covid situation. The seriousness of it all hit home extra hard when my best Continue Reading →

Anticipating My First Caning

I’ve since had my first caning about which you can read here. The video of this session (33 minutes) can be bought on my only fans page ($24.99) or contact me on mlslpup@gmail.com and pay through PayPal (£18) Anticipating my first caning The lovely Simon Brooke who I did suspension with showed me a Fetlife post of a bisexual female Dominant in Scotland, MissSultryBelle, who is looking for girls to cane on video. I was immediately interested. 1. I’ve been Continue Reading →

From ‘Innocent’ Girl to Obedient Slave

Mindset is an interesting thing. It is possible to talk about different kind of mindsets; mindset can mean whether or not you’re in the mood for sex, and mindset can mean your attitude. While it is called mind’set,’ a mindset is anything but set and can be changed as long as one is open to change and the mindset can be changed, for example, in slave/submissive training. I’m going to write about both of the mentioned kind of mindsets and Continue Reading →

My Kinky Fantasies

I’ve been dreaming of kinky shenanigans for yeaaars. And I mean years because while I’m only 24-years old, I knew I was into kink just as I entered secondary school. Of course, I was way too young to be allowed to be into kink and so I had to stick to my fantasies. Sometimes these fantasies would include me playing with dolls or lego and making up some kinky story in which the main character, based on me, duh, would Continue Reading →