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Previous task | Next Post Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. It had been about two months since I saw Roxy last when she came over to mine. I had really been looking forward to seeing her at my place again (and Continue Reading →
Previous Task | My Mistress is Coming Over I cannot remember how she set this task so let’s just imagine it was something like, “Wear a rope harness and take a picture outdoors.” The other day I realised that I had forgotten to post about this task as it took place just before Roxy came over weeks ago. But as I went through the posts Continue Reading →
Recently, I have been struggling to say “Yes Mistress” because it seems like I haven’t accepted the shame of taking on the submissive role. Or at the very least, I haven’t felt confident enough to dive in, I suppose. I mentioned my hesitancy to use it during my weekend with Roxy. It seems like I’m afraid I’ll be judged or that it’s weird for me Continue Reading →
A few weeks ago, my friend (I’ll call him J) who I had first met at a kink event came over. Contact had watered a bit during lockdown but apart from my surprise at his height, it felt like we might have just seen each other two weeks ago. He had brought candles, rope and stuff for electro play as I couldn’t decide what I’d Continue Reading →
All of us have limits and boundaries; there’s no such thing as a limitless slave. In a BDSM context, it’s especially important to be aware of these and to communicate about them. I think it’s hard to list your limits just like that. Personally I feel like I don’t have many but it’s dangerous to just say you have none, especially as this isn’t true. Continue Reading →
Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There is a picture set available with this blog post. At one point during our dynamic, Lois said she wanted me to start eating healthy and lose some weight. I thought this had been coming for Continue Reading →
A lot of people are embarrassed to be naked, which stems from being told that we need to safeguard our private parts from a young age. It’s not strange that this is taught because at some point people started invading other people’s privacy to satisfy their lust (non-consensually, obviously). As a result, however, there’s quite a bit of shame around nudity. Pleasure in Exposure I Continue Reading →
I’ve been making a habit of doing the Tie me up Tuesday prompts pretty last minute so I thought I’d do better this time. As I usually waste my entire morning with waking up I decided to do it straight after getting up. The added benefit of this was that I didn’t have to dress only to undress later in the day. If there’s one Continue Reading →
Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. This time’s Tie me up Tuesday prompt was the head cage and while I thought this one would be fairly simple it was an absolute pain to tie the double coin knot. I think I only Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Task Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. I woke up early from sweat-inducing dreams so I took a shower this morning, then tried to pass time playing with the injury on my lip (I will write a post Continue Reading →
Previous Post | Next Post Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. This film can be purchased on LF. I woke up at 9 am by my alarm and got up to have my own breakfast before preparing hers. I didn’t really need Continue Reading →
Next Post Last weekend, my Mistress came over for the first time. After reading the initial post I know you’re all dying to read how it went and I can tell you it was really nice. It’s hard for me to comprehend or explain but it made me feel so much like myself. On Sunday on our way to the bus stop, Roxy said she’s Continue Reading →
Previous Task | Slave Mistress Weekend: Friday If you’re in Scotland, you’re probably aware that we get to meet people indoors again. I also still happen to live alone for a limited amount of time so what better way to spend it than with a Mistress? Well, for the weekend anyway, Roxy is coming over. When you read this she will have already arrived (Friday evening) Continue Reading →
How do you know? People sometimes ask me. How do I know that I’m gay and not straight? This question came up a lot specifically closer to my coming out. I get it. We’re curious about one another and I have a certain experience that you may not have but the thing is our experiences aren’t different at all. It’s all very simple. I feel Continue Reading →
Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. If you look at the pictures I put out now you’d never think I was scared of doing this once. You probably wouldn’t even think I was shy or struggled with my body image but until Continue Reading →
Content warning: Depression, dissociation, self-harm, suicide I have a lot of discipline as a slave and a person. Rules are important for me in an M/s relationship because they set out the parameter. However, I don’t have to be disciplined much because I am very disciplined. I think it’s because I’ve had to be for different reasons and they are each building on one another. Continue Reading →
When I think of BDSM, my mind never really jumps to sex. If you look at the meaning of the letters you’ll notice none of them stands for sex, while there’s certainly an S in the word. But when people hear BDSM they intrinsically think of the bedroom, some handcuffs and otherwise probably some typical vanilla sex. I guess you can’t blame them; porn tends Continue Reading →
The loops The Mermaid Tie is such a pretty tie. I’m in awe of how the tails of others look like but I struggled to accomplish the same myself. The tie itself is very simple in that you repeat the same step over and over. The tie is more ‘complicated’ for the fact you need to get the loops right and when you start with Continue Reading →
“I am a question to the world, Not an answer to be heard, Or a moment that’s held in your arms.” You smile like Mona Lisa, is what my boss at the time (now close friend) said after the first few weeks that I had worked with her. She wondered what was going on in my head but I couldn’t say. She had opened Continue Reading →
Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. A little late to my own party, but rope ready now, I hope it was worth the wait, ha Though I should have probably worn some sort of bra, but I wasn’t sure what was going Continue Reading →
I never really thought of what a service sub is because I think all submissives (and dominants) are doing things in service of each other. A submissive kneeling in front of their dominant is a very clear sign of service; wearing a collar too is in service of. On the other hand, a dominant taking care of their submissive is in service of them. For Continue Reading →
Everyone has certain ideas and tends to stick to certain values. Sometimes we are so attached to these that we aren’t open to receiving input from elsewhere. I for one am convinced there is no god and am not receptive to the idea that I should practise religion. Is this a bad thing? No, not necessarily but the consequence is that I’ve closed to the Continue Reading →
“Shame attends only where we are interested.” I came across this quote in Failing Desire by Karmen MacKendrick, a book I recently started reading because Roxy recommended it and my interest in kink and shame. The book “draws on theology and queer theory to argue for the power of humiliating pleasures in a culture oriented very strongly to denying any enjoyment that is not about Continue Reading →
Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There are pictures and a video available with this post. Following Tie me up Tuesday week’s 2 prompt (do join in and enjoy the fun!) I decided to try a shinju harness. Seeing the other entries Continue Reading →
Please note: Due to the new online safety act, no pictures or videos will be available on this blog. You can now access them by DM-ing me on my Loyalfans. There are pictures and a video available of this. Since I recently did the normal leg tie, I thought I’d try out a slightly different one to practise some balance, I guess, ha. It’s fairly difficult Continue Reading →
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