Leashed, lashed and blinded

I love knowing that Roxy and I are going to play. When we go to certain places it no longer has to be said and there’s simply a knowledge that we will, which makes me happy. I don’t tend to ask what we’re going to do and only inform her if I need to be unmarked or not. When the evening fell we went to Continue Reading →

Mistress pieced my nipple

After Roxy and I played with needles for the first time she said: “Maybe we can pierce your nipple next time?” It was partly a question and partly a statement.  “Y-yes,” I believe I said, a little taken by surprise. As the idea further dawned on me I became more excited. I had thought of nipple piercings many times before but getting them done by Continue Reading →

Restoring Trust

Previous Post | Next Post A few weeks ago, I was meant to see Roxy on Sunday. She had said we would the weekend prior and having something to look forward to really helps me nowadays. That week, my mental health wasn’t great and the thought of wanting to die was constantly on my mind. However, I did the right things to help myself and Continue Reading →

Needles and Spanks

Previous Post | Next Post Content warning: Mention of blood and needles. (Pictures will be hidden, however. You can choose whether you want to see them.) After getting rather bruised from shooting a cp video on a Friday a little while ago, I sent Roxy a picture. She didn’t reply that day but when we next spoke on the phone she said seeing it had Continue Reading →

Spanked while being squirted all over

Previous Post | Next Post The previous week, Roxy was supposed to try out a new makeup look on me and do my hair, potentially to use in future videos. That didn’t happen so instead we moved it to the following weekend, which meant this was the first time we saw each other since the punishment. I had taken the time to learn how to Continue Reading →

Task 30: Fetish Girl Pose

Previous Task | Next Task “I like you to practise this pose every day so that I’ll be able to take that picture.” The picture and pose Roxy was referring to is this one from Eric Kroll’s book Fetish Girls. I bought it a little while ago and Roxy had a look when she was over. I’m not sure whether we sat together and looked Continue Reading →

Caught cleaning: a maid’s confession

Recently I was able to spend the entire day with Roxy and it allowed us to have a really nice time. Nothing was planned and there seemed little to no time limit, which made it feel relaxed and I could let go of my troubles. I will probably write about this day more in another blog post, but there’s a specific part I want to Continue Reading →

Punished for the first time

Next Post Note: I haven’t been posting much lately because I’m really struggling with my mental health but hopefully, this is the start of getting back on track. What I’m writing about here took place about a month ago. I knew Roxy was coming over today and I knew I was going to be punished. I wasn’t sure what to expect from this, as Roxy Continue Reading →

Task 29: Staple your belly button

Previous Task | Next Task “If you have staplers and needles I want to see your belly button stapled and/or with needles in it.” Aah, really?! That’s what you want me to do as a second task?! A week ago or so a friend said to me about how I had put needles in my belly button before and I corrected her then: “Not in, but Continue Reading →

Task 28: Pegged Toes

Previous Task | Next Task “Wear some stockings, put clothespins on your toes and hit them off with something.” After task 27, Roxy stopped giving me tasks for a while. This was around the time I moved to Glasgow and since I have been able to see her much more often, especially as she’s my extended household during this lockdown. Naturally, as a result, we Continue Reading →

Task 27: Attach a harness to your collar

Previous Task | Next Task “Make a rope harness that’s attached to the ring of your collar and take some pictures.” After receiving my collar, Roxy unsurprisingly gave me the task to take some pictures with it. Combining it with a rope harness sounded quite simple but when I started thinking of the mechanics it didn’t add up in my head. It’s quite common to Continue Reading →

Voicing my needs as a Slave

After quite an intense belting on New Years, Roxy and I hugged for a little before finding her partner in the living room. Something appeared to be up and so her attention shifted and while I was able to lean against her they soon went for a smoke. It was okay because I could cuddle with a friend in front of the fire but after Continue Reading →

A New Years Belting

On New Year’s Eve, I asked Roxy if we would play tonight. I thought we might but it would have been okay if we didn’t; I was happy enough that we were together but she said we would, she was wearing her belt. “Great,” I said quite nonchalantly, conscious about not wanting to seem too excited (I was very excited, obv). Twelve ‘o clock came Continue Reading →

Task 26: Crotch Rope Harness

Previous Task | Next Task “Make a rope harness that a crotch rope can be attached to.” I got a bit behind on posting about the tasks Roxy set me, as this took place back in September. In fact, I wrote about the play we had with a similar harness here, but I never uploaded the pictures of this specific task. When she set me Continue Reading →

A Devoted Whipping

When people ask me about my kinks and fantasies and I often don’t know what to say. I’m interested in a lot of things but if I think about it whipping has always been a big fantasy of mine. When I was struggling to sleep at night as a teen, I pictured myself standing in a dark room with my arms and legs spread and Continue Reading →

First Act of Submission of 2021

Quite unexpectedly, I was able to spend New Years with my Mistress and her partner this year. We hugged just after 12 and wished each other a happy new year, then she pointed at the floor. “Kiss my boots for your first act of submission of 2021,” she said. I looked at her for a moment, conscious that her partner was right there with us. Continue Reading →

Don’t be cheeky!

Last year around this time my blog was still fairly new and I’d only just started Onlyfans. I did a Christmas Advent Calendar and thought the festive season was a good excuse to be creative. This year, I haven’t felt festive at all, which hasn’t bothered me. Though it’s a little as if Christmas has just passed by, similar to the rest of the year. Continue Reading →

Drooling Punishment

Quite a while ago, Roxy started a project that required green screen replacements, for which she thought I’d be the perfect person to help out. I work well with After Effects, but I’d never replaced 4 different moving green screens in one clip and it proved to be quite the challenge. The job is very tedious and was specifically frustrating due to some technical issues Continue Reading →

Two Weights and a Crotch Rope

Last week, Roxy and I brought another visit to the dungeon. She’d given me the task to braid rope into my hair in preparation and handed me a bundle of impact toys and rope to take to the playroom upstairs. It felt a bit ridiculous carrying these, not least because I was holding my own tools of torture but also because there were too many Continue Reading →

Task 25: Showcasing My Tail

Previous Task | A Date with a Domme “Promptly take any creative picture with your new tail.” I had been awaiting my tail for a long time. I first started thinking of getting one back in April and when I looked on Etsy one immediately caught my eye. I couldn’t justify getting one, however because what would I do with a tail anyways? They’re expensive. Continue Reading →

Collared for Dinner

Previous Post | Next Task After the crotch rope and some final play, Roxy told me to put my clothes back on (yes, over the rope harness). We packed our stuff and she went to store her things away. I could have followed her but I stood still on my own in the dark for a while as there was something very soothing about it. Continue Reading →

Crotch Rope with Weight

Previous Post | Next Post I have always been interested in crotch rope predicaments. So much so that it’s one of the few things my ex and I actively pursued even though we barely ended up doing anything kinky. Last year before December I made my own crotch rope predicament by lacing the rope around the rail in my wardrobe and locked myself in place Continue Reading →

My Very Own Collar

Previous Post | Next Post Roxy said she’d got me a present for my birthday. I kind of knew what it would be but tried really hard to suppress my knowledge about it. I struggled with the idea because I wanted it so badly that I couldn’t allow myself to feel happy about it; apparently I don’t think I deserve to be happy. I was Continue Reading →

Changing Connections

Some people are afraid of getting older but what I’m really afraid of is a certain kind of change that comes with the passing of time. You can be the closest of friends with someone, which feels so secure that you think it will always last, but time passes and things change. Either the people themselves change or the situation around them changes and what Continue Reading →